Sometimes We Get Down…

I’ve been gone for a week and I really didn’t want to miss any blog posts this month, but the reality is I just have not had the motivation to blog. I am not doing this to force myself to do this when I don’t feel motivated, I am doing this for fun.

I want to talk about my health for this post because it has been not the best this month, unfortunately. I was born with an extra bone in my left foot, it took 12 years for them to even find it. I was in pain for 2 years before they found it after I started complaining about it hurting. They took x-rays, they did tests, my parents took me from doctor to doctor, no one could find something wrong. Finally, we went to a orthopedic podiatrist who took one x-ray of me standing and there it was in all its glory. Come to find out, it had torn tendons because I am flat footed and that’s why I was in so much pain. During the 2 years since I found out what was wrong with my foot, I went to physical therapy but stopped because nothing was helping. I eventually started compensating the pain on my right leg, causing my hip to be in a chronic deep pain. I went to see my family doctor who referred me back to my orthopedic podiatrist. When I went to see, him he took another x-ray of my foot but would not listen to us about my hip (which was the main reason for the appointment), he did manage to find that my calf muscle was very tight but he did not want to consider surgery because he thinks that physical therapy is able to help that. So now I am going to physical therapy 2 times a week and am seeing my family doctor who can do chiropractic adjustments. We have had an x-ray done on my hip but of course it was normal, so currently I am on crutches. We also still have no clue as to why my hip goes in and out of a deep solid pain that sometimes puts me in tears. I seem to hurt worse when I do a lot of standing or walking or a lot of sitting on a hard chair or surface, but of course when I go to therapy I feel almost normal on most days and I don’t hurt until the end but we cannot find where its coming from. If you have ever had a medical mystery you know just how stressful and emotionally straining it is on you and everyone who cares about and for you. You think the worst things possible because that’s just our human instinct.

As you would imagine, being on crutches is stressful. I have had more doors slammed in my face in the last 2 weeks than in my entire lifetime. I have had to rely on so many people like never. As a person with anxiety, I wear my heart on my sleeve when it comes to having to rely on others. I do not like having my independence taken from me just like that. I get extremely down and sad and very emotional just about every day since I’ve been on these crutches. I walk through the halls trying to have a simple conversation with my friends but I can’t because I am holding my breath so I don’t start crying because I’m physically tired, emotionally drained, and physically in pain. For crying out loud I can’t even walk myself to go pee before class because it takes me forever.

I know I started my blog because I wanted to help others. I know I’ve done nothing but complain about my problems but the truth is I might feel like I’m falling apart but I’m not broken completely. I could always not be able to drive or I could have cancer. I know that’s very broad but the point is I have no problems compared to what some people have been through. When I’m walking through the halls holding back tears, I tell myself “fake it till you make it Kiley!” I force myself to go as far as I possibly can, because I know it makes me feel like I can do it. I can show myself that I can reach goals, it just takes discipline. Self-discipline that is! It takes courage but you can do it, I was never the person to ask for prayers for myself because I felt selfish when I did that. The truth is though, it’s the least thing from selfish and you should never be afraid to ask for prayer. God knows when you’re in need and even if you don’t ask other people for prayer you should always be praying for yourself!! I learned the hard way and when my best friend told me how silly I was being I was humiliated and I realized I’m afraid to ask for prayer because it makes me feel guilty. I feel guilty because I don’t like asking for things, I am one who serves others and will serve others until I am physically unable. Serving others makes me who I am, but God is not going to judge us because we ask for prayer. He will not think we are selfish! So, if you are hurting or are feeling guilty about asking God for help, please don’t feel guilty!! YOU ARE WORTHY and are NOT guilty of anything!!

If you need someone to talk too or want to share your story, please feel free to contact me! You are not alone, even if I was not here, God is!

Peace Out- Kiley

 

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What’s In My Purse

Hello everyone!! Today’s post is something you ladies who love bags will love! I love seeing what other girls carry with them daily. I am not the girl to carry a full purse or a lot with me to school. I normally carry a purse everywhere else though because I am an over packer and I just like to know I have everything I would need if something were to happen. So, I am going to show you my purse and share all the details with you and I’m going to show you how I keep everything organized! I hope you enjoy this post and let me know if you’re the girl who carry’s her wallet, keys, and phone into the store or a purse!!

This is my purse, it is from Charming Charlie! I absolutely love it! It is very spacious yet not so big that it hurts my back or digs into my shoulders! It has three zipper sections, the two outside sections have no pockets on the inside, but the main section has two “cell phone” style pockets and one big zipper pocket.

This section has a Thirty-One mini zipper pouch with some Ibuprofen, lotion, a mini flashlight, a hair tie and two bobby pins, and some sample sunscreen. I also carry my mobile phone charger.

This is the other side sections contains. I carry a notebook, my cheap knock off aviators, and my reading glasses.
My notebook was a birthday gift but I love it!! I love all the cool quotes and inspiring words on it.
My reading glasses are Kate Spade and were also a gift but I love them! The most comfortable pair of glasses ever!!
My sunglasses are from Five Below and are just typical aviator style. They aren’t the best quality but they work!

To save room I am putting the pictures in this order and to save your eyes and time. Ha-ha. This is all the stuff I keep in the main section (plus, ladies some lady essentials). I have my wallet (it’s also from Charming Charlie- Double Zip Around Wallet) and a pack of chewing gum.

In the smallest “cell phone” pocket I keep lip products and a pair of finger nail clippers. (top right picture)

In the larger pocket, I keep my phone and headphones along with a billion ink pens.

 

I hope you enjoyed reading the first post on this blog with pictures!! Finally, right? Ha-ha. Unbelievably it is harder to take pictures for a blog than you would think. If I could clone myself, it would help for sure! I am working on it though, hopefully I can get a bunch of blog post pictures taken and have them ready to put in a post.

I also wanted to mention that as of right now my upload days will be on Mondays and Thursdays. If you don’t see a blog post up on those days, please just bear with me as I am back in school and am starting physical therapy. So, I will probably be drowning in Drs. appointments and homework, so I will try my best to stay on schedule. If you follow me on twitter I will tweet when the blog will be up or if there won’t be one that day!!

 

Peace Out- Kiley Lewis

 

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Places I Want to Visit

Hello Everyone!! Today I want to write down almost like a “bucket list” but I want to make a travel list for myself. I wanted to give myself 10 years so that I have time to save but I know in all reality and seriousness I won’t be able to visit every place I want to travel too.

So, the first place I want to visit within 10 years is Australia! I want to specifically visit Brisbane and I want to spend a day at Tengalouma Island where Scooby- Doo was filmed. I would also enjoy visiting Sydney and just doing some sightseeing and touring. My grandma got to tour and visit Australia so I would love to go and to take her back with me and to take and my mom would be the absolute ideal dream, but it just probably won’t happen.

The next place I want to travel too is Japan and I know that these top two are going to be pricey but hey it’s just a bucket list. I especially want to visit Japan because my Grandma and mom both got to visit Japan and I really want to carry on the tradition. I would specifically like to visit Okinawa and Tokyo. Okinawa has a lot of historic places and ruins to visit and Tokyo is a lot more city life and sight-seeing.

The third place I would love to travel to is London and some of Brighton. I really love the polite and traditional way of the English life that Europeans live. I specifically want to visit Brighton which is about an hour outside of London because it’s a cute little dainty town on the shore of the bay.

I want to also travel across the United States a lot more than I have already had the opportunity to do! I have had the opportunity to travel a lot more than any one my age has been able to do. I specifically want to travel a lot of California, I want to visit the beach in Los Angeles, I also want to do some traveling in New York and the North East.

I also would love to visit and tour Ireland. One of my favorite band is from Ireland and I had a close friend study abroad in Ireland a little bit and I was instantly jealous. Ireland is so beautiful and is so unique and interesting and I just love the culture. The music is so unique and so cool as well.

For right now these are all the places and spots I have had on a bucket list for years to travel too. I am sure as I get older and learn more about the history in the world I will want to add more places to this list. In all reality, if I am safe and can travel I will love to travel. If I had the opportunity to just travel for the rest of my life I would totally do it because I love it so much!! If you have any specific places you wish to travel in ten years leave a comment telling me where and why you want to travel there, or if you have been to any of the places I want to go, tell me if you enjoyed them or what was a must-see place!!

 

Peace Out -Kiley

 

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10 Things you Don’t Know About Me.

Hello everyone!! I wanted to do a fun little post so that you all can get to know me a little better. I didn’t want to just sit and write about myself and bore you all to death, so I came up with 10 random facts about me and I am going to share them with you!

  1. I love Jesus!! Big shocker right? Its so true though, I LOVE Jesus, I love learning about him, I love his word, I love it all!
  2. I am from Northern Michigan. I actually grew up until I was 8 in a little town in the outskirts of Travers City, Michigan.
  3. I wear bi-focal glasses and have worn them for a few years now. I am that blind and I’m only 17, yes I know that’s crazy but its true.
  4. I had Lazy eye muscle surgery when I was a little older then 12 months. Which is part of the reason why I have horrendous eye sight. I even sometimes can feel my right eye going lazy and loosing focus, weirdest feeling ever but the coolest at the same time.
  5. My best friends are actually not my age. About 95% of my friend group is actually a year younger than me and a whole grade younger. One of my closest Best friends is actually 2 years older than me and is a freshman in College. Would NEVER trade it for the world either!!
  6. I probably spend more time at my church and doing church activities than at my own house. I don’t mind one bit either and I love my church family!
  7. I moved to Virginia when I was 8 and have lived here ever since, I love Virginia but will always consider Michigan my home and will always hold a special place in my heart for Michigan!
  8. I have NEVER had a teacher confidently call my name on the first try. When ever the teacher calls roll on the first day and when they get to my name (if they don’t know me obviously) always stops and try’s to process it in their head before they call it out loud.
  9. I could drink coffee all day long!! I am a coffee addict and I love it. People might call me crazy because in the south you either drink half a cup of sugar and half a cup of cream or you drink straight black coffee. I love strong coffee with a little bit of half and half.
  10. I have two favorite candies. I love Sweet Tarts Mini Chewy and Swedish Fish.

And there you have it! Hopefully you learned something about me or you just laughed a lot at these! Haha. I hope you enjoyed this post and will stick around to read more!

 

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Blogging Goals for 2017

Hello Everyone!! This post is a fresh new start for me, as you can tell this is not my photography blog  (Don’t fret! I still am going to post on there and it will still be available for you to check out!!)  SURPRISE!!! I started a personal blog for my own memories and passion!!! I definitely want to grow more on this page than on my photography page because eventually I want to turn my photography blog into a website and I want to keep this for my blog posts. This doesn’t mean I don’t want to grow because I absolutely do.

With that being said, I wanted to challenge my self and write out 10 goals I have for my blogs in 2017.  SOOO… I wrote down 10 goals and I thought I would share so I was held accountable to at least try to accomplish them!! Lets Go!

One last thing… I have wrote these down in an order so that I started with 1 being the farthest fetched goal I made and then 10 is the easiest goal I made.

  1. I want to get at lest 1 paid partnership or possibly even have my blog become monetized. I know how crazy it sounds being that this is my very first post on this blog but this is not my first rodeo, remember folks I have had a photography blog for two years.
  2. I want to get at least 45 subscribers to my blog and I want to have an active subscriber community. Oh hey! Did you know that you can subscribe by entering your email at the bottom of the page and you’ll get an email every time I post or reply to you???
  3. Be able to post a successful Q&A post with a decent amount of questions. This one sounds easier than it is. I have currently ZERO subscribers/followers since I haven’t launched this site yet and it does take a lot of time and perseverance and consistency to grow. So this one will definitely challenge me and I’m so excited.
  4. Successfully be able to start a YouTube channel from this site. EEKKK!! This one is tricky being that I am a teenager and I’m a girl and the world is a CRAZY place now days and its scary for parents to just allow their little girl to post her face all over YouTube. So I have started this process of creating it, and I’m going to be honest I have a channel but there is no videos posted on it yet, but hopefully I will complete this goal by 12/17!!
  5. Grow on BOTH blog sites. I know it might sound like I am repeating myself but I promise I’m not. When you have a blog growing is not always about your subscribers, your views, money, or whatever you could put under the circumstances of “well known.” It is a lot of the time more about growing in your writing techniques and your presentation. So that’s what I mean by this goal, and I feel real good about completing it too!
  6. Posting more! Sounds super easy right?? Well… maybe it would be if I wasn’t a high school student it might be easier. Or if I wasn’t so easily stressed about school and just… life in general…… yeah I’m one of those people… But hey its all good!!
  7. Blog and Vlog my travels this year!! I want to do more traveling this year and just adventure the mountain towns I live around. Traveling is my time to reset myself and just think about my dreams and inspirations and I absolutely LOVE IT!! There for it makes a memory and blogging and vloging it lets me keep that memory for forever!
  8. Be able to upgrade my camera(s) this year. I have really wanted to do this for SO long but just haven’t been able to spend that much money on myself or simply have the money to do such. Cameras are ridiculously expensive and if I ever had an unlimited amount of money I would total have done this one years ago!
  9. Blog at least 5 DIY’s. I love making my own crafts and making things my self. My mom has since I can even remember has been a scrapbook, crafter, and jewelry maker mom.
  10. Subscribe to more bloggers and actually read their posts. lol I know that I can’t be the only person who follows someone on their social media and am slightly obsessed  with their social media and then a few weeks later I find someone else to obsess over. So I actually want to read them!!

And that’s all she wrote!! Or at least until my next post. I hope you enjoyed these and will help me achieve and complete these goals. Please, please subscribe and comment any questions you have for me or any tips or just say hey!! Thanks for reading and stopping by!!

Peace Out – Kiley